i was once told that the origin of the word decide is to cut off or kill any other options. life is supposed to be about choices, not decisions. yet i am decidedly limited in my options and that’s cos its not often you can make a choice independent of others, regardless the circumstance or your reasons. the sad truth is that its always easier for others to judge negatively which limits options even further. it frees them from ambiguity and the need to make a decision based on faith and trust. and this time i mean decision – cos it usually means killing off the other options. if only we all start moving from this point forward, i wouldnt be spending so much time trying to pretend i am happy or that the accusations dont matter to me. fact is, i have never been a gambling man. i run when the odds are stacked up. happy fucking valentine’s.

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